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...my elder sister died in a car accident. It wasn't her fault. Two truck drivers made mistakes and she suffered the consequences. 

I'm still not over it and I guess I'll never be. I've had troubles with my life before and I tried to fix them, but after that I was really finished. In the past few years I tried to get help by therapy, but it never helped. This year I gave it another shot, but I cancelled the therapy again after a few weeks. I'm not able to feel any joy anymore, no matter what I do. I doesn't matter if I do sports, or take photos, or whatch a movie or whatever.

Everyday ist just a big struggle for me, not living, just surviving each day. But I don't know how much longer I can keep on going, it's just getting harder and harder. And I'm always lonely. Since I was little, I've never managed to find any real close friends and even now I couldn't think of one. Today, I tried to contact a few people, but everyone is just too busy like always.

deviantart is one of the places I can write something like this. If I would post it on facebook, there would be too many family members, or co-workers. It wouldn't be good if they knew how messed up I'm really. 

I would really do anything to get her back, but I know that's just not possible. I wanted to get better for her, but without her it's just useless. My body is just a hollow shell and it wouldn't matter if I wasn't here anymore. 
Pure Anger by spike83
Pure Anger
The Austrian actor Kerim Waller came to my studio and we made some shots. Thanks to him, for being able to make such strong expressions.

Model: Kerim Waller
Location: My Studio
Lens: Canon EF 70-200mm f/2.8L IS USM II
web: www.markus-schiller.at
facebook: Markus Schiller Photography
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spike83
Markus
Artist | Professional | Photography
Austria
Started in 2007 with my first DSRL a Canon EOS 400D and a Kit-Lens and since then try to get better.
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You can use my photos as a reference for drawings, but please do not use them for photomanipulations.

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...my elder sister died in a car accident. It wasn't her fault. Two truck drivers made mistakes and she suffered the consequences. 

I'm still not over it and I guess I'll never be. I've had troubles with my life before and I tried to fix them, but after that I was really finished. In the past few years I tried to get help by therapy, but it never helped. This year I gave it another shot, but I cancelled the therapy again after a few weeks. I'm not able to feel any joy anymore, no matter what I do. I doesn't matter if I do sports, or take photos, or whatch a movie or whatever.

Everyday ist just a big struggle for me, not living, just surviving each day. But I don't know how much longer I can keep on going, it's just getting harder and harder. And I'm always lonely. Since I was little, I've never managed to find any real close friends and even now I couldn't think of one. Today, I tried to contact a few people, but everyone is just too busy like always.

deviantart is one of the places I can write something like this. If I would post it on facebook, there would be too many family members, or co-workers. It wouldn't be good if they knew how messed up I'm really. 

I would really do anything to get her back, but I know that's just not possible. I wanted to get better for her, but without her it's just useless. My body is just a hollow shell and it wouldn't matter if I wasn't here anymore. 

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spiti84 Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
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EthanRedOtter Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2015  Student Writer
Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D 
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