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spike83
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Artist | Professional | Photography
Austria
Started in 2007 with my first DSRL a Canon EOS 400D and a Kit-Lens and since then try to get better.
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You can use my photos as a reference for drawings, but please do not use them for photomanipulations.

Current Residence: Vienna
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...my elder sister died in a car accident. It wasn't her fault. Two truck drivers made mistakes and she suffered the consequences. 

I'm still not over it and I guess I'll never be. I've had troubles with my life before and I tried to fix them, but after that I was really finished. In the past few years I tried to get help by therapy, but it never helped. This year I gave it another shot, but I cancelled the therapy again after a few weeks. I'm not able to feel any joy anymore, no matter what I do. I doesn't matter if I do sports, or take photos, or whatch a movie or whatever.

Everyday ist just a big struggle for me, not living, just surviving each day. But I don't know how much longer I can keep on going, it's just getting harder and harder. And I'm always lonely. Since I was little, I've never managed to find any real close friends and even now I couldn't think of one. Today, I tried to contact a few people, but everyone is just too busy like always.

deviantart is one of the places I can write something like this. If I would post it on facebook, there would be too many family members, or co-workers. It wouldn't be good if they knew how messed up I'm really. 

I would really do anything to get her back, but I know that's just not possible. I wanted to get better for her, but without her it's just useless. My body is just a hollow shell and it wouldn't matter if I wasn't here anymore. 

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:iconethanredotter:
EthanRedOtter Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2016  Student Writer
Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D 
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spiti84 Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
alles gute zu deinem geburtstag :party: :cake: :party: :beer:
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lucytherescuedcat Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Your wonderful work has been featured here MyLovelyPet :-) 
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EthanRedOtter Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2015  Student Writer
Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D 
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spiti84 Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
alles gute zu deinem geburtstag :party: :cake: :party: :)
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